Tests of faith...Luring temptations....Saint Or Sinner?

So he sat their... he couldnt understand why he had been put in this test...this test in particular...he was thinking...oh god make me stronger...make me more powerful... someone would tell him to walk away, but where to go? if this test is everywhere and happening anywhere and all the time...what if he surrenders? i mean it is possible right? whats the worst that can happen...he will surrender at some point, he convinced himself....so the sooner the better...
.this damned devil is talking him into it...but wait a minute....now this isnt fair at all, he is still thinking....it is NOT fair he convinces himself....and this eventually will give him the right to act onto his intuition...he will surrender...some other person from another part of the world would definitley be enjoying his time right now....yes, yes, that is because they are all sinners.....and what? i am not?
'he who is not a sinner should cast the first stone' said jesus.....If people could only hear what went through his brains, they would call him an infidel....they would stone him to death...people would walk away from him....he couldnt understand why though....to him, it was only knowledge he thought, its ok to use some verses from the bible....i guess its fine, he convinced himself....yes, its perfectly fine, its only a saying of wisdom....plus, my faith is strong, stronger than this guy, no need to mention his name...so he thinks he is the one with all the knowledge of religion, right, he thinks he is a walking saint....and yet, he looks scary to him, he looks wicked...a siant cant look wicked he thought....i know i am much better...no doubt....
Back to the luring temptations... it was the damned devil again...playing games with him, but he just remembered how god has always been so merciful and loving to him, he couldnt make him upset....he knew god would once he surrendered, but he didnt want him to become upset...he loved him so much....
But then, god is mercifull, he will forgive him right? he will be so loving that he will forgive him regardless of all what he does....should he count on that?
I mean part of his faith is that god will forgive him what so ever right? so whats the big deal...he thought to himself...
DAMN IT...by the time he came to this conclusion...it was too late....he lost the opportunity!!!
Next time....waste not time on thinking....just act straight away...dont calculate, dont think....just act!!! he thought to himself.
Now this time what saved him from falling to the evil temptations was how he took the time to think it over....how about next time? he was still thinking?
He remebered this story of these two men, one of which who wasnt a believer in god, told the other," i envy you for how strong you are....you left this whole world with all its pleasures and chose god over it."
So this saint , or this strong believer looked at him and smiled, then said," I am nothing close to how strong you are, you are very strong you chose the world with its ending pleasures, over god...you must be very couragious inorder to do such a thing..."
But that wasnt fair...he thought to himself again....so after fighting these temptations and the strong forces of evil trying to lure him into sin, he becomes weaker than this man who enjoyed living and chose all the pleasures of life over god???  The sinner? this infidel....this...
Hold on now....yes, he is stronger....you have experienced the pleasure of being with god, you know how much rewarding it is havent you?...........well...yes i have....then you have witnessed....and you have chose to stay safe...you are safe now...you made your choice...he still hasnt...he hasnt witnessed yet...or maybe he has but chose to live apart from god...so now who is stronger? he who witnessed the truth, the light....god, and believed? or he who has witnessed iall the same, but chose the other pleasures, pleasures that will end with the end of his youth....he takes nothing along with him to his grave but his deeds....he is stronger!
BUT HOW????
I am stronger!!! he said out loud! Yes I am!
Hold on...you are stronger....And he is stronger!
He is stronger in ignorence,,,,and you are stronger in Faith!
NOW IS THE TIME. NOW IS THE PLACE.