A NEAR DEATH (PERSONAL EXPERIENCE)..what doesn't kill you...makes you stronger.

It wasn't until he started shaking me so hard and calling my name so loud, that i started realizing in the background that he was calling...
I was in a state of shock...I was scared...I was terrified from the experience...I was dying.
No words can ever explain the sensations...No feeling could ever be worse...Nothing can explain what was happening...



It all started as a stupid joke...when my friend took my scarf and started jokingly choking himself...He turned red, then he released the scarf and started smiling stupidly then fell behind my on the couch...I thought he was kidding....So i asked him what he felt, he said it was a numbing sensation...he said he liked it so much...
I liked the idea of having this mental orgasm...I asked him if he could choke me...So he took the scarf and tied it around my neck, and started tightening his grip, until i slowly started to stop breathing...He looked at me and asked me," Can you still breath?", I was turning red, but i could still breath i guessed, so i smiled and nodded.
He then pulled harder, and then.....BLANK.......!!!

All I remember after that is that in the few seconds he was shaking me and calling my name, staring at me not knowing whether i was joking or not...I saw my whole life pass like a super turbo fast forwarded tape...I saw everything since my birth, my childhood...everything...It all went by so fast with all the sensations and feelings and voices and sounds...Everything, even my emotions....It was so vivid...So real.
In the background there was a vague image of reality...A whispering voice of someone calling my name...It sounded too low compared to the voices I was hearing from my past life....I was feeling someone's hands slowly shaking me.....And then suddenly, it was as though i were dead, and came back to life.
He was looking at me in shock. He was still calling my name, and asking me if I was I OK...I Couldn't answer...It was as though I were paralysed...I couldn't speak...I couldn't understand...I was totally out of reach.

I slowly came back to life....I stared at him...I stupidly smiled...not knowing why...then the smile turned into a gasp..."What happened?" I asked him...Looking around, finding the table moved from its place, and all the stuff around me scattered.
"I don't know...I was pulling the scarf, and I asked you if you could still breath the second time but you wouldn't answer, I figured you couldn't talk, so I let go of the scarf, but you wouldn't move...you were staring in front of you, motionless, I thought you were joking at first so I laughed, but you remained so still, I started shaking you and calling your name, but you wouldn't respond, and then all of a sudden, you shook so hard, as though something hit you...And you hit the table so hard with your legs, it moved away...Are you al-right?" he asked me looking so worried.
"I don't know...I don't know...I can't understand..." I said confused and puzzled...I was feeling so strange...Nothing like i had ever known or sensed...I was scared...

No words can explain this consuming experience....Only silence can approach its true essence...I will never try it again...Not this stupid way...But it only makes me believe that: What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger."


NOW IS THE TIME. NOW IS THE PLACE.